I’ve successfully gotten the 27th thru the 1st off, it’s official. I left the default title in place- ‘New Event’ supplemented by ‘?’ because I’m not 100% sure what’s going to happen, but…it might possibly be quite an Event.
Currently, however, Time is shuffling along in the most maddeningly slow way. Like when you’re trying to get in and out of a mall in a hurry but you’re stuck behind a brace of lackadaisical Sunday afternoon window-shoppers that have fanned out in front of you.
I’m having to stay home again today with a shitty cough, but at least it’s nothing more than that. The weather over the last few days has been absurdly beautiful: clear, breezy and mildly cool, but full of warm sunlight, accompanied by a storybook sky complete with occasional shaving cream clouds. October always kicks ass. The two times a year when the weather is cool are my favorite times- autumn and spring. And every night, I step outside for a minute or so to look at the sky, feel the air, and see the clarity of the brightest stars against the midnight blue, and I keep thinking of you.
I fantasize about all sorts of things concerning you, but you may be surprised at how mundane some of these things are; at times I wonder what it would be like to just go grocery shopping together. Hang around the house watching movies/tv. Riding home from somewhere in the car with you at night, listening to music. Just being around you, really, and savoring “the magic of a boring evening at home” together. To me, all of that (and more) would be so lovely.
Oh don’t worry, though- there’s plenty of sensuous and sultry material in there too.
When we do get to see each other…I don’t know about you, but I’m prepared for anything to happen. The energy around us could be so dizzying, so saturated with intensity that the air catches fire- & I wouldn’t be surprised. From the inside of ground zero, I might dimly be aware of the thought ‘yeah that’s about right’ as it flickers briefly across my mind, but the rest of me will be utterly drunk on You, your presence flooding me, overwhelming every cell, overflowing.
But for now…I’m hoping this simulation of Purgatory will at long last come to an end- become something I will have successfully gotten through- turn into something consigned to Past Tense. I hope something good is on its way. Listening in on some of those who study the movement of the stars and planets, I’ve heard tell that there’s some remarkable shit going on around then, too, and they’re all pretty much in agreement on it.
But I’ve been wrong a lot before, and so have the star-watchers. I have to remind myself that I know nothing for sure about any of this. Waiting in the dark may very well just continue into infinity, seeing me pinning my hopes on Someday for the rest of my life.
And have you listened to the Bjork Drop?
I’m finally getting around to posting a photo of the cute dandelion bunny print on a pair of panties I bought a few months ago. I mean, can you even believe it? They have both dandelions And bunnies on them! The lace could be a lil softer, but who the hell cares.